finding strength beyond my own

this summer has been really hard for me. while being married is the best thing that has ever happened to me, it's also been the most difficult adjustment. this may be due to the fact that we moved far far away to a strange land. the past four months, i have had to learn how to:
1) work. work a lot, long and hard.
2) compromise, and not just the type of compromise you learn from sesame street.... this is the type where you give up the way you think things should be done and let someone else take over very important things, because you trust them. scary? yes.
3) patience. this lesson hit me like a ton of bricks. not only did i have to learn to be patient with other people, but i've learned to be patient with myself and my life. things don't always come when you want them to, BELIEVE ME. people dont always do things the way you would, but it all works out. i've learned how to sit patiently at home all by myself for hours and hours until victor comes home from work. this has been so soooosooo hard for me. so hard that im crying as i write this. but its okay, because it's a lesson that has made me a better person. i've still got a long way to go, but im on my way.
4) self discipline. i can't count how many times i've been in the grocery store or target or ross and wanted something so badly but told myself no.

its hard to live in a place where you have no family, no friends, no favorite places, no comforting memories. it's been so hard to be without my family, i miss them so much.

but ya know what? i wouldn't trade this summer for anything. the most important, but also difficult, lesson that i've learned this summer is how to rely completely on my savior and father in heaven. that's how i've gotten through these trials.

2 nephi 4:20-23
"my god hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions... and he hath perserved me...
he hath filled me with his love, even unto the consuming of my flesh.
he hath confounded mine enemies, unto the causing of them to quake before me.
behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me knowledge by visions in the nighttime."

so, with the sales season coming to an end in a little under 2 weeks, and things still undecided about where we'll be going... i'm scared. but i find comfort in the scriptures, going to the temple and victor. i swear, victor was made to ease my fears, he's very comforting.